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Commonplace Books
Feb. 14th, 2024 11:13 amI had this bizarre idea to start a commonplace book and I went ahead and bought a notebook for it (because of course I did), and was thinking how a lot of things that would probably end up going in there are tumblr posts and other online things that are very likely to get lost into the aether the minute you look in the other direction, because as websites become "content mills" rather than anything worth viewing over and over again. I had the strange thought of making a website to archive these things worth reading, but that seems like it might take a lot of energy I don't have... and also, little reward.
Social media is insidious in that it creates an addictive pattern of immediate gratification but there's also, ah, the whole thing where you get no gratification or even response from anything you do. I remember my early experience on forums, being yelled at for wanting any sort of attention and being told that writing/art/whatever should be an entirely solitary pursuit and that I wanted any sort of response for anything was a sign that I was not cut out for it -- never mind that that's not true, has never been true, and weirdly, all this negative feedback on existing at all and being obnoxious did not stop me from creating anything, though it did stop me from posting. If I am doing something just for me, then writing it down in a little notebook for myself to enjoy is enough for me. A website is a lot of work with absolutely no one to look at it, it would not be for self-gratification. Which makes me, again, question, whether I should do this, or a lot of things, or sometimes anything at all.
I haven't written the novel in a few days. This is probably why I'm going crazy, I think.
Social media is insidious in that it creates an addictive pattern of immediate gratification but there's also, ah, the whole thing where you get no gratification or even response from anything you do. I remember my early experience on forums, being yelled at for wanting any sort of attention and being told that writing/art/whatever should be an entirely solitary pursuit and that I wanted any sort of response for anything was a sign that I was not cut out for it -- never mind that that's not true, has never been true, and weirdly, all this negative feedback on existing at all and being obnoxious did not stop me from creating anything, though it did stop me from posting. If I am doing something just for me, then writing it down in a little notebook for myself to enjoy is enough for me. A website is a lot of work with absolutely no one to look at it, it would not be for self-gratification. Which makes me, again, question, whether I should do this, or a lot of things, or sometimes anything at all.
I haven't written the novel in a few days. This is probably why I'm going crazy, I think.
