Long Drafting

I handwrite drafts and I realize I am on page 70 of a leuctturm and have not typed any of the words yet. And I feel like I'm just meandering through garbage and more garbage writing, I do not think this is something anyone would really want to read... but these are just thoughts, I don't know. I think after a certain point it feels very much like one has distilled their own fixations and is just oozing them out onto paper over and over, and the real conflict is whether or not this is a bad thing.

I need to get more through Harrow The Ninth. The badness she sees in the world feels very familiar to what I write and reminds me that people would still want to read what I'm working on, maybe.