The Male Hysteric

Last Friday me and my partner ordered Chinese and I was exhausted and ordered chow mein and the thing that was delivered was... not chow mein. According to some messed up definitions of this city I live in it's apparently like chow mein, but the thing is that it was mostly soggy cabbage and onion with no noodles and they gave you a little packet of crunchy noodles and were like "here you go! it's chow mein!" I was so fucking angry I left it in the fridge and went to sleep like immediately.

Sunday rolls around, I really don't want to waste food. I prepare a packet of chapagetti noodles, add them to the frying pan along with the chow mein and some sesame oil and sprinkle some of the crunchy noodles on top. It was some of the best Chinese food I've had. And I was so fucking angry. Because the thing that was sent to me was like 80% of the way there to being a great meal and then it just didn't have the noodles. The noodles would have been so easy to add. But if I'm ordering Chinese food, I'm not going to be spending that much and then going to cook some more. So it's unlikely to be a dish I ever have again. I'm going to have to figure out how to make my own I guess.

In other news, on Saturday night, working on my neocities website, I was realizing that after a whole week of garbage, I was actually feeling somewhat calm for once. And I realized that the reason why was because... I do not access real social media on my laptop. I only access it on devices. So working on the neocities HTML meant that I was actually giving the thing I was learning my full attention and not thinking about the news at all. It was a very strange experience.

I don't know if I really think the future is on the small web, but in a way I want to believe. I joined smallweb to get into contact with other creators. There's also some burgeoning stuff going on on bluesky. People are getting into webrings and I was realizing I cannot add my blog to a webring because dreamwidth does not support javascript. Which is probably for the better, but disappointing nonetheless.